Poor Me Day!

I can't believe I haven't written anything for a month and a half. Considering all the activities and misplaces people and animals we have had this summer I guess I shouldn't be surprised. My desk and computer seem to be the most popular place in the whole house. The cats love to sit on the desk and look out the window at the birds and the kids use the computer for editing their pictures of Europe, learning how to type and in Andy's case talking to every available girl on line.

I've missed the outlet to communicate to myself if nothing more than a primal scream. My emotions have been all over the map and my frustration is at an all time high. Most of frustration is over things that I have no control over and also being devalued and under appreciated at work. I don't think it is a pride issue as much as it......" Boys are Stupid, Throw Rocks At Them!"

I miss Amanda at work. I miss Suzy and Tim. I miss the quiet and serenity of my home.....everything is cluttered and in disarray and my children are in transition and are being frustrated at every turn. I long for some continuity , a scheduled time , regularity, something that is not last minute, panic, or frenzy. No more running around with my hair on fire smelling smoke and wondering where it's coming from. No more marginless days and sleepless nights. No more restless wondering about this or senseless worry about that. Calgon take me away! But no.....I can't even escape into a long relaxing bath as we only have a shower and not enough water to take us through the week. If this is the first day of the rest of my life.....then it sucks to me!