Excuse me while I growl....
I'm in a growly mood today.I think I need to go hibernate!
Warning: What follows is a lame excuse to justify self-pity. If you not inclined to read "poor me post STOP RIGHT HERE.
I've been on an emotional roller coaster all week long and it just keeps building.
I'm wondering if some of it is the post holiday blues. We were so busy in Canada helping get ready for the arrival of baby bug that the time just flew by.
Since arriving home there are new demands and new lifestyle changes that I'm having difficulty coping with.
I'm your basic Lazy Daisy.....I rarely venture out of the patch .
This week started out on a high emotional note with having my tooth pulled and the emotional trauma I always go through. My anxiety level was at an all time high and I've been dealing with a dull ache in my mouth all week. My prayer life definitely increased immediately.
I started a community Bible Study this week....I had already missed the first session which meant going out Monday night to attend the first session in a nearby town. I was born without a sense of adventure and definitely no sense of direction. Driving anywhere at night is traumatic, especially if you are unaware of the area. Again my prayer line was in constant use till I returned back to my cozy nest.
I joined Curves this week and made a commitment to attend at least 3 times a week. Since we are leaving the city tomorrow that meant going Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. It wasn't a horrible experience but it suddenly dawn on me that I'm fat. (Now I'm traumatized again!)
Yes, I know I have been fat for most of my adult life......it should come as no great surprise but it did. Taking numbers, taking pictures, weighing and measuring......it was so in your face. There was no place to hide, just the stark reality .....it is what it is!
Yesterday in all this mix came news that pregnant daughter was taken to the hospital because her BP was elevated. I'm an old OB nurse....I know what that means and all the complications that can occur. (Yes, I'm a worse case scenerio kind of girl when in comes to my babies!)
I was with friends when I got the news , We prayed , I was fine. However, as I was driving home it hit me that this was serious, and I wasn't there. So I did what any good momma would do.....I cried. I cried, and I cried, and I cried. Would love to tell you how much better I felt afterward but I didn't.
I called my best friend who has known my daughter forever and as soon as I heard her voice....I cried some more. Between sobs she got the jest of the story and did what she does best....She prayed, and prayed and prayed some more.
Afterwards the burden didn't seem quite so overwhelming. By the time I drove home there was word that pregnant daughter was home and all was well.
Tommorow starts a whole slew of activity.....My mom's birthday, seeing my sisters, service project with the sisters, driving to Savannah, seeing friends, doing ministry, driving home again.
Mr. Wonderful wonders why I'm not as excited as he thinks I should be......I don't know either, but for now I think I'll go hibernate. Cave time is looking really good right now.
15 comments:
Hummmmmm, strange how Wordless Wednesday and this post go hand in hand. I'm praying too.
I hope venting helped a little. I just lifted a prayer for you and will do so again.
Awwww....I just don't seem to know what I can do to ease your feelings. Anyway, here's a hug and kiss. Hope this will help you feel better.
Take it easy and have a good rest.
It's your blog, Daisy, if you can't vent here there's a problem!! What you need are some good cyberhugs to go along with those prayers {{{{Daisy}}}}...consider it done from this Florida girl.
I'm praying for you and know that God will hold each situation in His hand. May He give you comfort, too.
Blessings, Sister!!
:-) Susan
I just said a prayer too Daisy, for your daughter and grand-baby and for you. It sounds like life is overwhelming right now. It will be better soon. In the meantime you are entitled to vent whenever and wherever you need to vent!
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praying for you...
I have those times too...emotionally just overwhelmed...you have good reasons for your feels and a heart just too big so you feel it all the more...I had one of those days yesterday too..horrible blizzard, difficulty getting to my baby-girl...then we were stranded on them way home...no one would help to dig us out and finally we had to abandon the vehicle and try to walk it...my baby just couldn't go the whole way in the blizzard and we ended up knocking on the door of kind strangers who let us in, warmed us up and ultimately took us home by snow-mobile since cars weren't moving...and in between all the tears and emotions I saw again God's hand taking care of us...and I KNOW he's taking care of you and yours too:)
There is nothing as warm and comforting as a little hibernation, alone with God.
Daisy I am so sorry to hear about how you are feeling. I have been busy today and just now got to your blog and here I find that my friend is really upset. I knew about Becky because I read it on her blog...but when I saw that she was okay then I did not worry anymore. You really have had a lot of different things happen in your life this week. I think just too many things for ONE week. It is not going to help you to say that it is all going to be okay because you already know that. Just keep praying..Okay...Sandy
You sound like you're about all in, Momma. I will pray for your light heart to come back and for you to find strength for the days ahead. I love you....
*hugs*. You know, everyone deserves a pity party every so often. I know your daughter will be fine, as will the baby. Good thoughts coming your way.
And you joined Curves - you're taking a step, and that's good too! I had to double up on gym time this week due to vacation next week, and I know it's hard. but "woo hoo" to you for doing it!
Hey you, it's ok pity parties are acceptable! ;)
Hang in there sis, baby and daughter are in good hands, and we both know that they are certainly prayed over!!
Good luck on the Curves, I need to do something....I feel the pounds adding on every minute!
Have a good time with your mom and sibs!
Love ya and sending you a great big hug!!
Ohhhhhhhhh I missed this yesterday! Dang! I always visit the other page and forget to come to this one! I need to put this one on my other blog roll ... that's what I'm gonna do!
Sweety, I am sooooo sorry you're feelin' this way... You ARE going through a LOT of changes right now -- but they ARE for the better! Keep that in mind! Only good will come of it!
I'm sure you are a little down after the holidays -- and missing the Canadian contingency... and wishin' you could be there for the birth... All of that is completely understandable!
I'm prayin' my heart out for ya, and hoping your visit with Sandy helps some. Maybe you guys can just "chill" together...
(((((Hugs Dear Daisy)))))
Daisy,
You definitely could use some downtime but more than just one day.
(It is good to hear you whine for a change.)
(((hugs))) I have been there. I know what it is like to want to crawl into a cave and hibernate until it was all over and the sun peeked through the darkness once again. ((hugs))
Seems like we're a lot of bloggers that had a downside lately. Sounds like you've had your share. I hope it's getting better from now on!
I heard you had a good time with Sandy.
Good luck kicks with Curves, I admire all of you that goes there!
BTW: come on over and warm yourself at our flaming new blog look and have a drink. It's supposed to be temporary, just to get rid of the Santa, but I'm not sure, maybe I grow too fond of it... *lol*
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