Just in Case you were wondering.....

Yep, that's me......the last few days I've been all alone contemplating life and dispensing free wisdom.

The last three weeks were jammed packed with travel, fun, adventure, food, the beach, relatives, and best of all our grand daughter. I ate too much, played too much, rode too much, and hobbled around on my crutches too much. I knew" the too much"now, would soon be "not nearly enough". So a whole year of hugs, laughter, pictures, and memories had to be captured, preserved and stored for easy recall on days when longing over comes reason, and loneliness can only be lifted by a reflection of a sweet laughing face that lit up whenever I came into the room.

My thoughts now turn to what awaits me in the near future. Right now there are more questions than answers. Discussions turn to outcome, rehab, risks, possibilities, legalities, and the long road back to normal. I do think Patsy Clairemont had it right all along...."Normal is only a setting on the Dryer."

I miss having legs that do what you tell them to do without buckling. I miss the ability to hop out of bed in the middle of the night with my only thought of getting to the bathroom (not where are my crutches, and immobilizer). I miss being able to put my own shoes and sock on (who knew?) I miss the ability to carry anything ( hard to do when you are carrying yourself on two sticks). I miss working in my garden (Mr. Wonderful drove me to the back yard in the car to view it!) I miss the rhythm and flow of life.....right now it seems I just get to observe it from the sidelines.

For now, I'm simply trying to be content. In my heart of heart I know that there is a reason for "this time out" but I haven't been able to come up with an answer that satisfies my soul yet. My prayer life has greatly increased as well as my gratitude quotient. Who knew that being still before God would take such intense effort.